It’s been just 3 days since I am back and life is slowly limping to normalcy. My little pad is ready but occupancy but without the cooking means it still remains incomplete.

I discontinued writing since there really wasn’t anything exceptional happening in life … it would be basically venting my frustration especially since I was just back from my vacation… Now I am back to my normal self considering much as been achieved over last weekend. I have finally got my gas connection after much running around on Sunday. I have bought the essential utensils required for cooking and some supplies which I just couldn’t do without. And all the time, I kept saying … God, why me?! This is the third time that I had to build life rather my household from scratch and this time all by myself. My earnest prayer to God – I should be able to survive this temporary phase and then head back home within a year. My life has become is forever an example of trials and tribulation … Perhaps, there is a hidden message that I am missing. But I must admit, the last year or so has brought about a huge learning – one that will stand me in good stead.

However, Sunday started very badly – uncle said something which I took to heart and immediately set out to put things in place. I have certainly not seen a more opinionated family than this before … everybody will stand up and criticize but not one to come forward and help. Or am I taking too much for granted? Or is it that I have stayed too long in close proximity of this household? Whatever the reason – familiarity breeds contempt hence time to move on … If the remark instigated me into action and settling me down then I guess I should be grateful for that little outburst. Some work remains as I need to buy some stuff before the next month sets in … a visit to the Big Bazaar on Saturday will suffice.

I have reached a new low emotionally these days … I called up and chatted up Viggy about it. He was also of the opinion that I shouldn’t go all out to befriend people as people here simply could not be trusted “…never mind even if you went absolutely mad – we can still cure that”, those were his words. I am coping up with multiple changes in life – and not a single good one. I have not yet recovered from the job loss - then relocation for employment after a rather difficult time searching for one, not to mention coping up with multiple rejections for silly reasons and positions going on hold after clearing a few rounds (usually around the time of the final round). Staying away from family, forcing parents to relocate, losing a trustworthy household help and most importantly financial pressure to make both ends meet, given the commitments that I had. Last but not the least, coming to terms with a bruised ego while dealing with a certain individual who has given me enough trouble for over a year now. Frown

The moral of the story – enjoy the present especially if you are having a good time, you never know how long it will last!