This year has been a very low key celebration with the day not being any different from an ordinary day … I only gave the gym regimen a miss and devoted an extra hour in prayers. Apart from the fact that I am missing my parents a lot, there is also a feeling of melancholy and depression has set into each of our lives – mind you all for uncontrollable factors.

Birthday wishes have come in from close relatives and friends like all other times but things are just not the same. The feeling of enthusiasm, exuberance and bonhomie is absent – I hope everybody is not doing for the sake of formality or maybe I am not happy myself.

It’s been 4 months since I have been handed the pink slip and till today I still search for the elusive offer – time and luck not running my way. I read in the papers about a man in the US who was laid off almost 9 months back and after innumerable failed attempts to find a suitable opportunity he had resorted to ‘beg’ for a job after pinning his credentials on his shirt. Ouch! I dread to even think of getting into his shoes.

Is it my ego or something else that is hurt - the rejection from everywhere which adds up to the pent up exasperation? But things are slow and all the leads have not yielded any positive results. I still don’t know how long I can sit idle and wait for things to change …

When I think back … the reminiscences of my birthday celebrated last year conjure up my mind with many happy and everlasting memories. I will truly cherish those moments although I knew even then that it would for the last time in such company.

Never has uncertainty gripped me so much– who know what holds for me tomorrow although I am sure I need to let go only to embrace changes for a better tomorrow …

Signing off with the anticipation that there is light at the end of the tunnel and when things don’t work your way they work out for the better ….

 

With Faith.