Still settling in …
It’s been just 3 days since I am back and life is slowly limping to normalcy. My little pad is ready but occupancy but without the cooking means it still remains incomplete.
I discontinued writing since there really wasn’t anything exceptional happening in life … it would be basically venting my frustration especially since I was just back from my vacation… Now I am back to my normal self considering much as been achieved over last weekend. I have finally got my gas connection after much running around on Sunday. I have bought the essential utensils required for cooking and some supplies which I just couldn’t do without. And all the time, I kept saying … God, why me?! This is the third time that I had to build life rather my household from scratch and this time all by myself. My earnest prayer to God – I should be able to survive this temporary phase and then head back home within a year. My life has become is forever an example of trials and tribulation … Perhaps, there is a hidden message that I am missing. But I must admit, the last year or so has brought about a huge learning – one that will stand me in good stead.
However, Sunday started very badly – uncle said something which I took to heart and immediately set out to put things in place. I have certainly not seen a more opinionated family than this before … everybody will stand up and criticize but not one to come forward and help. Or am I taking too much for granted? Or is it that I have stayed too long in close proximity of this household? Whatever the reason – familiarity breeds contempt hence time to move on … If the remark instigated me into action and settling me down then I guess I should be grateful for that little outburst. Some work remains as I need to buy some stuff before the next month sets in … a visit to the Big Bazaar on Saturday will suffice.
I have reached a new low emotionally these days … I called up and chatted up Viggy about it. He was also of the opinion that I shouldn’t go all out to befriend people as people here simply could not be trusted “…never mind even if you went absolutely mad – we can still cure that”, those were his words. I am coping up with multiple changes in life – and not a single good one. I have not yet recovered from the job loss - then relocation for employment after a rather difficult time searching for one, not to mention coping up with multiple rejections for silly reasons and positions going on hold after clearing a few rounds (usually around the time of the final round). Staying away from family, forcing parents to relocate, losing a trustworthy household help and most importantly financial pressure to make both ends meet, given the commitments that I had. Last but not the least, coming to terms with a bruised ego while dealing with a certain individual who has given me enough trouble for over a year now. 
The moral of the story – enjoy the present especially if you are having a good time, you never know how long it will last!
Life and time changes ….
It’s been ages since I put attempted to write … but here is a long overdue post.
Apart from sheer laziness, there were other issues in life due to which I had stopped writing. I was living in limbo for far too long. While talks of closing a job deal has been going on for long but there was a huge roadblock and progress was rather slow. To say my luck was bad would be an understatement… However, CPA got back to me with an offer, there was no scope of much negotiation and I accepted it. But kept hoping against hope that FT would materialize, but alas, that was not to be! Inspite of Hewitt progressing very well … they suddenly stopped communicating. So, here I was, with just one offer in hand.
Finally, I was to relocate … the acceptance came along much later. I spent the last few days quite tensed but on hindsight I feel, I went a bit overboard. Even Rajan managed a job but luckily he is in Hyderabad. I was to struggle some more now … it is all providence. I flew down to Delhi on 30th August with 2 suitcases full of clothes and accessories, I would say meagre by any standards. However, I have spent quite a few bucks on my wardrobe since the job offer came along. My first halt was at Vaishali, Ghaziabad at Nupurdi’s. Actually, I had a pretty good time there. Life has changed for them for the better and touchwood, they seem a happy family! After spending the first 3 weeks with them, I moved to Noida with Mukta’s parents’. It has been decently comfortable here… Mukta was here along with Sri and we went out sightseeing in Delhi. We even went shopping at Sarojini Nagar and bought a few essentials – I enjoyed every bit of my day out.
My otherwise happy day in Delhi was slightly spoilt by the incidents in Hewitt. I was again caught between two worlds … more indecision because they wanted to take the interview process forward. I was reluctant but they convinced me to take a day off and visit them for once. And would you believe – I actually went back again when they arranged the logistics for another round. All the efforts were in vain as talks didn’t progress any further … heard that the position has gone on hold due to restructuring in the company. Now, things have changed … I would rather stay on here as I am doing something meaningful.
My initial days in Delhi were like adjusting in an alien atmosphere, I often feel a sense of being lost. Like someone uprooted from their base and tossed into a jungle. I am still trying to feel my way and then establish myself. Things at work is better now, I am trying to establish a cordial relationship with my colleagues after an initial misunderstanding with my lady boss. I am still to feel the work pressure though I have stayed back late on a few occasions. Work is just kind of picking up and I should get ready for a few long days ….
There were a few days of excitement early on at work as I had my counterpart visiting us here and we had a couple of dinner get together. I would have felt very bad to leave everything and go and join the other company. I was successful in developing a cordial work relationship with this colleague, the one I hope will continue as long as we are here together.
The highlight of this period has been my first salary which looked rather handsome. Although, I ended up spending a whole lot in shopping and paying the advance for my meagre accommodation. I also had to buy a few essentials. However, I am hoping to start saving from next month onwards. With not much help coming in from anyone but uncle and aunty, I have to slog it out. However, what’s making the matter worse is the fact that I am missing Ujjal and mostly everyone at home desperately. It is a tad difficult to adjust with others at this age and stage in life no matter how hospitable they maybe.
At long last, with lots of hesitation, reluctance and one where I had to show courage – I decided to break the umbilical cord of the relationship. Again, a little hope was starting to develop after the initial contact after months – but I realize nothing happens one sided. Not even friendship! It was just stretching things with nothing concrete happening at that end. It’s the end of another year by the hindi calendar and I look forward to the next year with more hope, happiness and peace.
And now, I must leave to catch a flight to Hyderabad. I am going home to celebrate Diwali with parents, aunt and sister’s family in addition to mine. Look forward to a few days to happiness.
Cheers and happy Diwali!
Life and time changes ….
It’s been ages since I put attempted to write … but here is a long overdue post.
Apart from sheer laziness, there were other issues in life due to which I had stopped writing. I was living in limbo for far too long. While talks of closing a job deal has been going on for long but there was a huge roadblock and progress was rather slow. To say my luck was bad would be an understatement… However, CPA got back to me with an offer, there was no scope of much negotiation and I accepted it. But kept hoping against hope that FT would materialize, but alas, that was not to be! Inspite of Hewitt progressing very well … they suddenly stopped communicating. So, here I was, with just one offer in hand.
Finally, I was to relocate … the acceptance came along much later. I spent the last few days quite tensed but on hindsight I feel, I went a bit overboard. Even Rajan managed a job but luckily he is in Hyderabad. I was to struggle some more now … it is all providence. I flew down to Delhi on 30th August with 2 suitcases full of clothes and accessories, I would say meagre by any standards. However, I have spent quite a few bucks on my wardrobe since the job offer came along. My first halt was at Vaishali, Ghaziabad at Nupurdi’s. Actually, I had a pretty good time there. Life has changed for them for the better and touchwood, they seem a happy family! After spending the first 3 weeks with them, I moved to Noida with Mukta’s parents’. It has been decently comfortable here… Mukta was here along with Sri and we went out sightseeing in Delhi. We even went shopping at Sarojini Nagar and bought a few essentials – I enjoyed every bit of my day out.
My otherwise happy day in Delhi was slightly spoilt by the incidents in Hewitt. I was again caught between two worlds … more indecision because they wanted to take the interview process forward. I was reluctant but they convinced me to take a day off and visit them for once. And would you believe – I actually went back again when they arranged the logistics for another round. All the efforts were in vain as talks didn’t progress any further … heard that the position has gone on hold due to restructuring in the company. Now, things have changed … I would rather stay on here as I am doing something meaningful.
My initial days in Delhi were like adjusting in an alien atmosphere, I often feel a sense of being lost. Like someone uprooted from their base and tossed into a jungle. I am still trying to feel my way and then establish myself. Things at work is better now, I am trying to establish a cordial relationship with my colleagues after an initial misunderstanding with my lady boss. I am still to feel the work pressure though I have stayed back late on a few occasions. Work is just kind of picking up and I should get ready for a few long days ….
There were a few days of excitement early on at work as I had my counterpart visiting us here and we had a couple of dinner get together. I would have felt very bad to leave everything and go and join the other company. I was successful in developing a cordial work relationship with this colleague, the one I hope will continue as long as we are here together.
The highlight of this period has been my first salary which looked rather handsome. Although, I ended up spending a whole lot in shopping and paying the advance for my meagre accommodation. I also had to buy a few essentials. However, I am hoping to start saving from next month onwards. With not much help coming in from anyone but uncle and aunty, I have to slog it out. However, what’s making the matter worse is the fact that I am missing Ujjal and mostly everyone at home desperately. It is a tad difficult to adjust with others at this age and stage in life no matter how hospitable they maybe.
At long last, with lots of hesitation, reluctance and one where I had to show courage – I decided to break the umbilical cord of the relationship. Again, a little hope was starting to develop after the initial contact after months – but I realize nothing happens one sided. Not even friendship! It was just stretching things with nothing concrete happening at that end. It’s the end of another year by the hindi calendar and I look forward to the next year with more hope, happiness and peace.
And now, I am going home to celebrate Diwali with parents, aunt and sister’s family in addition to mine. Look forward to a few days to happiness.
Cheers and happy Diwali!