Great Expectations!!
Now this is happening to me everytime ... and it can be so frustrating. Somehow my expectations are set and they are never met ... sometimes they are set by someone else although mostly by me and circumstances conspire to let me down each time ...
Now I have started doubting myself ... do i expect too much! This is concerning everything that I want very badly and look forward to expectantly ... then things just change sometimes dramatically to deny me what I was hoping and praying for ... and I am forced to ask ... Why always me? I want to know how I can get over this feeling of being let down by life ... on every such occasion! :(
Life has not been a bed of roses ... I ought to have learnt by now but being a natural optimist, I keep living by anticipation .. Hope is the basis of my existence. So now I will live another day HOPING that I will learn not to expect too much from life ...
Is God listening?
Rediscovering love!
This article is more an extension of a blog published earlier. Yes, I am discussing LOVE again! I was reading a blog of a woman all of 30 years who was rediscovering love at that age and much of what she mentioned reminded me of how I felt when I was a teenager.
Like any girl that age … I would ‘fall in love’ every other day only to realize later that I was actually having a crush! However, one thing that really stuck me was the honesty that reflected from the blog. She was indeed in love … I too was transported to those days when
The sound of his voice would send my heart pounding, the mention of his name would bring about a blush … I would be tongue tied as he would heap praises on me … the feeling of warmth when his arms would possessively encircle me … his laughter was music to my ears. I would wait for his one call … to hear him speak to me for hours about things I can’t remember now …
Today all those thoughts conjures up memories of the past which are still so vivid, so real that I can touch them now. Sigh! …. Can anyone forget their first love ? Are such feeling repeated in the future? Perhaps not … but as of now … I am hearing Celion Dion singing … It’s all coming back to me now…